I should have kept quiet

Troubles and problems dont seem to leave me. First i have to decide between a PhD in australia or canada. Now, bigger troubles are coming my way.

I guessed I have been talking too much. Friends close to me know I like to joke around and being not serious. This unseriousness just got me into troubles:

• Auntie, I didnt mean to say what I have said. It's just a mean to make you happier and less troubled, but guessed I did the wrong thing.
  
• Ray, I'm sorry. I didnt mean to question you when you are agitated. But I just wanna you be happier. You know i do support you, dont you?
  
• Eric, I maybe too irritating and annoying sometimes. But all these cause I care. I really care for all of you, you know, especially when you guys are my only dear ones :(

I'm vex, devastated and terribly upset. Sorry to all those i have hurt. Eudora, we are on the same boat, arent we? Or maybe, mine's worse. i'm on a sampan in the middle of South China Sea where storms are brewing. Ermmm.. What's next?